Mat, age 9
San Leandro, California (1985)
I'm 9 in this picture at my elementary school Halloween party. I loved Star Wars and just knew I could make it more fabulous! The funniest part of this picture is the clown next to me. I wish you could see the look on his face!
I sure loved Star Wars, but more than that, I loved Harrison Ford!
I should have known back then I would have daddy issues...
I remember feeling different at this age, but I just didn't know what it meant to be gay yet.
That started happening around 13, when I asked to go to see a musical for my birthday. In San Francisco!
Classmates making fun of me pretty much kept me from ever sharing such info again. But 3 years later, I did have my pre-coming out party in choir!
Overall, I suffered through some rough stuff at times.
But as they say these days:
It gets better!
Mat's first, famous-person same sex crush:
Harrison Ford ("Indiana Jones")Oh man - that leather jacket and that bull whip?!
Still gets me going to this day!
Click here - "Born This Way: Real Stories of Growing Up Gay" book
Click here - "My First Gay Crush Blog"