July 10, 2011


Jeferson, age 7
Novo Hamburgo, Brazil (1991)

This is me and my sister, and one of my "My Little Pony" dolls, which I collected for 4 years.

As a kid, I felt torn between playing games and toys meant for girls, or those meant for boys.

In my confusion, I didn't know
if I wanted to be He-Man, or be
She-Ra. Hahaha!

I always had more female friends as a kid, and was the target of bullying for it.

I was extremely shy, and I spent my entire adolescence without feeling accepted or understood. I was very inexperienced, and felt I could not approach the girls. But when I was 25, I had my first kiss with a woman.

It was only after entering the theater that I decided to accept myself as gay,
and try being with guys. Once I did, I knew being with men was my true nature.

I eventually told my godfather (who is also gay) and who was a childhood friend of my father. Today, my whole family accepts me and supports me.

Jeferson's first, famous-person same sex crushes:
Jonathan Knight & Joey McIntyre (from New Kids on The Block)
New Kids On The Block: Greatest Hits - The VideosMy Little Pony > Rainbow Dash with Skirt DollThe Politics of Sexuality in Latin America: A Reader on Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender Rights (Pitt Latin American Studies)

Also check out "My First Gay Crush Blog"


Drizzle said...

Glad your family accepted you, but I have a feeling they already knew since you collected My Little Ponies.
And Cute picture, by the way.


the island guy said...

That's aweseome. I"m glad that you have found acceptance from your family and also from yourself.

John Flanagan said...

Hi there. Love your blog, but for some reason the last time the pictures showed up in Google Reader was May 27th. There's no point in subscribing if all one gets is the text. Not trying to be an asshat, just letting you know.

Jeferson Paz said...

Minha família é maraaa!

Erik said...

Wow i feel really related to the story :'3

I played with my sister's Barbie dolls (well sorta, i loved to play very rough with them... they ended up DESTROYED xD). And I passed for almost everything it says.

I'm still "in the closet" and very inexperienced in sentimental relations. I may try something with a woman (since it has never happened), but i KNOW i wanna try with a man too...

Glad I'm not the only one, i was starting to feel like a monster hehe :)

Giuliano said...

Uma história "Made in Brazil", que maravilha.

E o detalhe do "Pequeno Pônei" é sensacional.