July 17, 2011


Eric, age 2
Lille, France (1995)

I've always been different. I loved playing with girls, but not with boys or playing boys' stuff. In fact, I hated boys because they were mean to me!

I was the weird boy of the school who didn't play football, and who spent his time drawing or reading. I even had Barbie dolls.

I first realized that I might be gay at 13. I felt things for boys before, but never thought I might be gay.

When I was sure I was gay, I wanted to die. I felt ashamed and disgusted. And I swore I would only date girls.

But at age 16, and pretty sure I wasn't gay? I fell madly in love with a guy!

I was feeling so good, I knew it couldn't be wrong. However, after being rejected by this guy who didn't love me back, I finally started to come out. I first told my friends and then my parents. They were very supportive, and I feel very lucky.

Today, I am out, gay, and proud - and I love it!
And PS: I still love wearing this hat, and I still think cowboys are so sexy!

Eric's first, famous-person same sex crush:
The two guys kissing in Christina Aguilera's "Beautiful" video

MEN: From His and His KissesIn & OutLiving in Arcadia: Homosexuality, Politics, and Morality in France from the Liberation to AIDSFrance Gay et Lesbian 2007 (French Edition)

Also check out "My First Gay Crush Blog"


the island guy said...

cute! I think cowboys are hot too!

Daddy Squeeze Me! said...

I loved this and if the cowboy has the right mindset, then yes.

Just Two Chicks said...

Awww, such a cute little boy!!

Unknown said...

Such a nice entry. LOVE the hat!

Tenebris In Lux said...

Love the blue sweater and hat -- such a cute kid you were :-3