January 24, 2011


Kyan, age 4
Ripley, W. Virginia (1989)

As a child, I spent my earliest days with my sister helping to dress me in her or our mom's clothes. This was only interrupted by my love for Ninja Turtles, stuffed animals, and turning my bedroom into a store where I'd somehow convince my mom to pay me for things I found lying around the house.

"Who knew this rainbow would follow me for years to come?"
At the age I'm seen in the photos, I didn't realize that I was gay - although I imagine others around me suspected. It wasn't until late elementary school, around age 11, that I started to become aware.

As time went on, I had the Internet to help me make it through, connecting me with other gay men around the globe, and eventually the media provided me with great outlets to understand that life for a gay man could be great. And Queer As Folk became one of my favorite TV shows during high school.

Working through these feelings was far from easy, especially growing up in rural West Virginia - where the redneck and Republican to homosexual ratio is greatly skewed. I was also often reminded by my mother that gays would burn in hell. Fortunately, my mom has since become very supportive.

But I made it out alive and I'm living life to the fullest, with the same grin on my face I had in the photo.

Kyan's first, famous-person same sex crush:
Richard Dean Anderson ("MacGyver")
John Stamos ("Full House")
My attraction to John Stamos is one that has only grown stronger
Click here - "Born This Way: Real Stories of Growing Up Gay" book
Click here - "My First Gay Crush Blog"


Apendix said...

MacGyver was my invisible friend. I used to talk with him like if he was at my side

I love your grin


Unknown said...

Thanks for the compliment, Apendix

Still grinning,