Shawn, age 5Litchfield, Ohio (1987)
This is back in my childhood in Ohio. RURAL Ohio. VERY rural Ohio. I guess I've always felt different, but didn't recognize this as "gay" until about age 15.
As a kid, I enjoyed marriage as a ceremony. Perhaps it wasn't a movie I shouldn't have watched at age 5, but I loved the twisted wedding scene at the end of "Flowers In The Attic," where the mother falls off the balcony to her death.
Anyway, I suppose this makes Jennifer my first and only beard in my first and only homo-flexible moment.
My mom baked a Duncan Hines cake and Jennifer's older brother played preacher. We said our wedding vows, had an awkward kiss, stuffed our faces with cake, then danced on the porch.
Seeing this pic again really made me look back and realize how effeminate and, well, f*ggy I've always been. Now, 23 years later as an out adult, I look back on these photos and it makes me wonder why anyone would ever make me feel bad about being FABULOUS!
I see these photos now as cute and adorable instead of any kind of embarrassing. They're photos of me, the way I always was and continue to be.
Oh, and PS:
Our "wedding" ended in divorce after I saw Jennifer poop in a sand bucket and feed it to her dog...
Shawn's first, famous-person same sex crush:
Chris O'Donnell (as Robin in "Batman Forever")
If I recall correctly (and of course I do), his skin-tight costume gave me my first voluntary boner. Good times!
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